Shadow of His Wings Ministry
Child: Hey Dad, can we talk?
Abba God: Sure my child, what’s on your mind?
Child: Are you sure you want to talk with me? I have been struggling in this world and I am not doing so great right now. I had the hardest time even coming here… I don’t think you want to know what I’ve been doing. I should just probably go…
Abba God: I already know what you’ve been up to child. Your every moment is my concern. Your every hurt, pain, and distraction is on my heart. My eye is always on you. You’re that important to me.
Child: So if you know my junk, then you really must be upset with me. You keep asking me to do better, and I always fail. I am just a failure… I’m not worthy to be in your presence. I’m probably one of your worst kids huh?
Abba God: I’m not upset with you child. I love you more than you could imagine. My love is not dependent upon your goodness, it’s based upon who you are and what Jesus did for you. He died so that you could know me fully and so we could always be together – good or bad. That’s why the veil was torn… nothing separates us now. His blood covers everything that used to keep us apart. Oh, and by the way you’re not one of my worst kiddos, I am especially fond of all of you.
Child: I don’t know why I keep messing up. I am afraid I will never get it, Dad. I am worried that I will always struggle and that my junk is just too much.
Abba God: I know you are discouraged child… but I am not. Why? Because I know your heart better than you do and I also know my Jesus. His love and power is at work in you… keep coming to see me. Let nothing keep us apart… even your junk. I care more about your heart than your goodness. Apart from me you can do nothing. Stay with me, come see me, even when you feel the most desperate. I am always here. Don’t ever forget that.
Child: You really love me that much?
Abba God: Most definitely. My love is not dependent on you… its dependent on me. I’m Dad… you’re not. You just be my child and I will take you where you need to go. Just keep coming to see me and the more we talk, the more you know my love, the more you will remain in me. Lift your head child… you are my child, and you belong to me. I will never let you go. My heart and my love will always draw you to me. Just don’t let your shame keep us apart. I am the shame-healer. Look into my eyes… see the love I have for you. It is there in spite of your actions. My true love will set you free; shame only shackles you to your past. Come here now, sit with me and let me hold you. Feel my strength around you. Feel my love encompass you. See… isn’t that better?
Child: I feel better already Dad. You really do love me. I’m sorry I mess up. I really want to be good.
Abba God: I know, Child. I know your heart. I know your tears. I know your struggles. I also know your freedom. It’s coming. Now, just rest and I will sing you a lullaby.
May you rest in Him today. Knowing His full love and hope for you. Remember you are a Child of the King. Live like one! The veil is torn! Go boldly into the throne room, He’s waiting for you.